Dear Mum,the second Christmas without you was'nt good,so is New Year's Eve.It's New Year's Eve today and i still don't feel like celebrating the New Year in,even though it's about 8 minute's to midnight-New Year's day,2008.i'm trying for the children and for shaun's sake but it's stiil don't feel real.wish i could wake up and it would all be a nightmare,still feel's empty without you mum.Just dreading the New Year.I just heard firework's outside,it must be New Year now.Poured myself a Bailey's,raise my glass to you Mum,I love and miss you.Happy New Year.xxxxxxx